To cross that line

Today came my most feared time during the preparation for the exam... Which is to dance in front of the class. Teacher made everyone dance in pairs though the dance was not a duet. HOWEVER... my partner was not around today and I had to do it alone...! Dear God, were you kidding me?

I know the graded sections of this exam are all solo dances but Im really not ready for it. I cannot do well in something I fear eventhough I know how to do it. My feet became hands and vice versa.... Understand?!

I was the last to dance... should have ample time to feel more calm but when my name was called, I just felt so overwhelmed by fear... couldn't get myself composed no matter how many times I tried to convince myself that it was OK and everyone was JUST common, normal human.

I believe everyone has different aspects that they find very hard to overcome and that's what life is all about isnt it?..... A huge classroom where everyone is learning all the time, difficulties to overcome, barriers to break, oneself to surpass, a line to cross!

I know my flaws and this is an extremely major one when it comes to my ballet exam. This is my final step to what I had set myself to achieve from the start and I must complete it and do it well.

I can do it! A breakthrough... Mark my words.